Arguements

I will never be able to understand how two people who loved each other so much, can say such hurtful things to each other. I try to refrain myself from saying the things that I know will hurt H when we are arguing. But H on the other hand, doesnt. He says them and then, of course, he regrets saying it. But really and truely you can't take it back once it is said. You can be sorry for it and regret it but you cant really take it back. We had an arguement, if you couldnt tell already, and he asked me if I was a teachers pet. I busted out crying, sobbing like.

On the other hand, I found out that another friend of mine from a while back, is pregnant. OMG! UGH!!!!! I dont know how much longer I can take this crap! Just because I know its not possible right now doesnt mean that I dont still long for it! I a am very devoted blog reader of people who have been or are going through infertility. Even they are getting pregnant now! Gah! It seems like I cant catch a break.

I started crocheting a wrap, for me, it supposed to be the colors of a PCOS ribbon that I found but it just looks like a baby blanket. I have had so many people ask me if I was crocheting a baby blanket. Whoa! Low blow! So I guess I am gonna try and turn it into a blanket. I guess for my future baby or my niece. Its light pink, light blue and light purple. I dont know. Its really long and the last blanket I gave to my niece, my mom turned it into a dog blanket, which hurt and pissed me off. So I am going to hold off on giving my niece another blanket until she's older. When I am babysitting either my niece or the other kids that I babysit. I am not thinking about no being able to get pregnant. Honestly sometimes I pretend they are mine. Yeah but that doesnt last for very long, before I am kicked back into reality.

So yeah till next time.

Days until move: 40