Soooooo Screwed.......... And Not In A Good Way

Okay yeah I was very bad this week about dividing our money amongst our bills and now I have been running ragged trying to find a place to give us a loan. We still have 3 more bills to pay and his down payment for his surgery that he's having on Friday. Wow, I was just an idiot this week. I'm so mad at myself. I am very moody latley and I have been off the progesterone and havent started the clomid yet. I'm not supposed to start them until AF shows up. And she hasnt shown up. Anyway, I am jsut stressing out. When H was with his ex-wife they apparently burned every single loan place in this city. Its frustrating. I can't get a signature loan cuz I haven't been on my job for 6 months. I can't get another kind because my credit is awful. So yeah I really don't know what to do. My best friend can't help us like she could because she was forced to resign from her job so she is jobless right now. I have nowhere to turn. I have 2 more places to try and if they say no then we are completely screwed! Ugh......I guess things can't go good for a long period of time. :( Damn!!!!!