Dreams

Okay, really weird dream last night. My husband and I were at my ex's house. I have no freakin clue why. We had dinner then I went to the bathroom and my ex was in there. He said " S I really miss you. Please, I know we are both married but I love you. I know I never told you that before. Maybe I should have, but I want to be with you." I stood there in shock. He never once said anything remotely "romantic" the whole time we were together. He never said "I love you" or anything like it. I said "No S, I love my husband and you had your chance and you blew it. A part of me still loves you too and still longs for what we had, but I cant do anything, I made a commitment and I am going to stick to it. You should to!" I walked out and when I did my husband saw the S was in there with me, before I could explain he jumped to conclusions (I cant say that I wouldnt either) and they started argueing. I was gettin all hyped up just trying to get H and I out of there. Then H's ex-wife showed up! Aw buddy, all hell broke loose then. She started saying that she wanted ot be back with H and that she still loved him and she wanted them to have another baby and shit like that! I went off [see I can't stand his ex wife. I am pretty sure she doesnt like me either. she dresses like a prostitute and acts like shes 15 when she's really almost 40 and she doesnt give a damn about their kids]! I jumped on her and started punching the crap out of her face. I grabbed her hair and just started punching. It was like I couldnt control my rage. Right in the middle of the fight, S and H were trying to get me off of her, H actually woke me up.

The weird thing was, was that he was chatting on line with his ex-wife. Did I mention that I really cant stand her! He woke me up from my nice dream (lol he he he) and wanted me to look at some pictures that I could have looked at today. So basically in my opinion he woke me up for nothing.

On the other hand, I think my cycles might be going in a cycle. But they are very long. CD 1 of the second to last period I had was on May 30, 2007. Then I had another on December 30, 2007. But the last one wast like a normal period, it was very light for a period. It was kinda like heavy spotting. Only lasted about 3 or 4 days. Unlike the usual 7 -8 days. So I guess if I was to try and track it, I would be on CD 12. I dont know. Its so confusing. I know its probably all in my head, but I have been kinda constipated and nausea is awful, sense of smell is greater and cravings have been ridiculous! Its probably all in my head though.

But I guess I have said enough for this morning at least. If I have anymore to say I will write some more! =)